Goals..Day 30: 30 Day Blog Challenge

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Day 30: List your goals for the next 30 days.

  • I want to be thriving in school. I’m trying to maintain an A, nothing less than a B. Which should be fairly easy when I focus. I was always a smart girl, I’ve just been distracted for the past few years but, I’m back on track now!
  • I want to have more money saved up. I’ve been saving for a truck and doing pretty well. I hope to have a bigger amount by the end of thirty days. I messed up my first Jeep in an accident so I want another one!
  • I want to continue to lose weight. I’ve been doing great with exercising everyday. I want to continue to eat healthy and hopefully have lost a couple more pounds.
  • I hope to have my trip planned out. I am planning a girls trip with my girl friends. It is a much needed mini-vaca and I can’t wait to hang loose and not have to worry about coming into work everyday. lol So hopefully within the next thirty, we should be gone.
  • I want to start going to church again. I have stopped going for about a year now and I want to get back into it. No, my faith has NOTHING to do with church attendance, but I love the atmosphere and being surrounded by like-minded people.
  • Hopefully my hair is longer. lol I plan on getting my hair cut this weekend. Idk how short yet but, I know it wont be where it is now which is past my shoulders. I want something new but, I also want to cut it so it can grow back more healthy. So, hopefully I still don’t feel like a boy with my hair cut lol
  • My New Bed! Ugh, I want a canopy soooo bad. But, I think that will be my Christmas present to myself, or birthday. Idk. But, I found the one I want and I’m going to get it.
  • I would like to get back into playing the piano. I have my keyboard again, yay! So all I got to do is keep practicing like I used to.
  • I want to have gone ice skating at least two/three times. It is GREAT exercise and tons of fun.

What are some of your goals?

Peace & Love ♥

Dinner Time..Day 29: 30 Day Blog Challenge

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Day 29: List 10 people, dead or alive, you would invite to dinner. Include the dinner menu.

  1. My Grandmother. I never got a chance to meet her so if I could have just one dinner with her, I would make sure I had a table full of southern cooking. She was a county girl so I would try to make her feel at home. I’d probably have us eating outside on the farm she was raised on, barefoot and just having a good time. I’d want to know everything. How my great grandmother and grandfather were. How he childhood was. I’d want to hear her wisdom and stories all day and night, and fall asleep on her chest while she sand me to sleep. I heard one of her recordings once, she was a great singer!
  2. DeAndre. My little cousin passed away a few years ago. I miss him so much. He always called me Cassie and followed me around school, creeping up on me and my friends. He was a bad ass tho lol. But I miss him. The last time I saw him, he was trying to get me to go play basketball with him and my brothers. But, I took too long getting ready and I got there when he had left already. Everyday I think about what I could’ve changed. Just left in what I had on, got ready quicker, something..He has a little plaque right on the side of the highway and I pass it everyday going to work and I think of him everyday. I got a tattoo dedicated to him on the side of my stomach. Every time I here the song they played at his funeral, I cry my eyes out and turn it off immediately. I still can’t bare to hear it. I think I would have junk food and pizza for us. lol He was a tiny little thing but boy could he eat!
  3. Maya Angelou. She is such an inspiration to me. I want to here about who motivated and inspired her to be who she was. Who and what inspired her to write. I’d let her read some of my poetry and stories and see what she thought. I think I would want something light for her. Maybe just some tea and cookies. lol
  4. Martin Luther King. I would love to speak with Dr. King. He was so powerful and commanding. He had a goal and died fighting for it. I would love to hear him talk about everything he went through while trying to obtain this goal. I would ask him what he thought about the world today. With all the police brutality and senseless crime. I wonder what he would think. For him, I would have huge steaks with potatoes, some type of veggie, and desert would be pie, any type he wanted.
  5. President Obama & 6. Michelle. I would want to ask them how it felt to be the first black president and first lady. I would want to know if they experienced any direct hate or faced any huge threats. I would also want to know what they were going to do after the presidency. Is Michelle going to run in the future? Will they still have a hand in politics? What next? For dinner, I would probably have some baked chicken ( I know Michelle is trying to push that healthy cause) but it would taste like fried chicken though. lol
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  7. Aaliyah. When I heard that Aaliyah had died, I was getting in the backseat of my mothers car and we had just turned the radio on. I didn’t want to believe it. I had grown to love Aaliyah. She wasn’t like all the other singers who did things just for attention had felt the need to flash her body every chance she got. She was a true performer and I loved that about her. I had her posters all around my room. Had and still have every CD. That was my girl. Idk what we would have for dinner. lol I just know I would want to sing with her and maybe learn to dance. lol
  8. Robin Williams. As you all know, he committed suicide. I would want to talk to him and ask him what made him come to those terms with himself. What was it that he felt he could not fix? Was it that no one listened to him? He had no one to talk to? I would want to know what made him come to a decision to end his life after he had helped and inspired so many. For dinner, I’m not sure, maybe chicken and caesar salad.
  9. Beyonce’. I would love to talk to her. About any and everything, I don’t care. lol That’s my girl. I would want to ask her about her fame, her goals in life and if she felt she has reached or surpassed them. What inspires her to most and of course some fashion and music. Maybe some chicken for dinner? I don’t ever care, let’s just talk.
  10. Rihanna. I would absolutely love to talk to her about her spirit. She is so free and I trying to reach that level of open and free-ness. lol She gives no fucks at all about how others view her or why they view her that way. She just does Robin and keeps it pushing. Keeping her eye on her path of self. I think we would have some Island foods. Maybe some curry chicken, rice, and whatever else. lol And of course, gtta have our wine.

Who would you want to have dinner with if you could?

Peace & Love ♥

I Miss You..Day 28: 30 Day Blog Challenge

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Day 28: What is something/someone you miss?

Someone I miss is my grandmother. I never got to meet her because she died before I was born. But, I would have loved to grow up with a grandmother that I could talk to. And if she was as cool as my mother describes her, I know I would’ve been her favorite grandchild ;).  I would have loved to see the woman that was there for my mom. Although my mother only had her for a short period of time, she listened to the things that she instilled in her and I would have loved to listen to her advise. I would have loved to go over grandma’s house and chill out with her all day, eat some good food (I heard she was a great cook) and just talk to her. But, I know we will meet one day.

Who/what do you miss?

Peace & Love ♥

 

Trust Issues..Day 27: 30 Day Blog Challenge

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Day 27: Discuss a problem you have or had in the past.

A problem that I have is trusting people too easily. I believe in people’s words even when their actions don’t show it. I am always giving people the benefit of the doubt and trying to see good in them when sometimes, there is none. I forgive people too easily without giving myself time to heal from whatever it is.

You have to be selfish with your feelings and know your worth. If you let people step all over them you will never be taken seriously or respected. And this goes with family, friends, relationships, in the work place. You have to set a foundation of respect. Once you do that, hopefully the rest should follow. I recently had this issue with someone, and when I demanded respect after years or letting issues I had go, there was push back and ultimately ended a relationship and friendships I had formed over time.

When you let someone get used to treating you like you are less than, and only feed you words instead of showing you actions, when you decide to wake up, they act like its wasn’t something they should have been doing in the first place. Lol crazy right? But regardless if it’s family, friends, etc. If you have no respect or trust, you have nothing. When you eliminate those people out of your life, you feel so much better. You may miss having them around, especially if they have been in your life for  while but, by no means do you want or need those people back I’m your life. Trust me.

You cannot feel bad or guilty for wanting those type of people out of your life. I know I don’t. Sometimes, you have to rip the bandaid off and get it over with. It may  hurt every now and then but I promise you will wake up a better person.

Since I’ve eliminated those people from my life, I even look at life differently. I look at myself differently. I am going down my own path now and it feels so good. When you let those type of people in your life, you don’t feel like yourself. But I have ME back and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Now when I think about everything I was put through, I want to slap myself. Lol The friendships were not worth losing myself. The relationship was not worth losing myself. Respect is something you want to establish from the beginning or anything. In work, with friends, anything. That way, when you have to check a few people, they don’t look at you like you’re crazy and if they still do, Fuck Them! Cause you matter and NEVER apologize for pushing people out of your life.

So, I won’t stop trusting people. That’s not what I’m saying. But I will trust in their ACTIONS and not their words. Big difference people!

Peace & Love ❤

Jack Pot! I won the lottery!! Day 26: 30 Day Blog Challenge

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Day 26: If you had $1,000,000 to spend, how would you spend it?

If I had a million dollars to spend, I would buy a car and a house. I’d also get a house for my mother. I would fix both of them up with only the nicest things, and I would save the rest. I wouldn’t go crazy with the shopping although I would get me a few things.
I would also use it to travel. Nothing too big, but something memorable and beautiful. I would still work, after all, you can’t live off of that for the rest of your life. I would be smart with it.

What would you do?

Peace & Love ❤

Me, Myself and I..Day 25: 30 Day Blog Challenge

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Day 25: Discuss someone who fascinates you and why?

Honestly, I think I am a pretty fascinating person myself. And I don’t mean in a conceited way either. Every time I think I have it figured out about who I am and what I want to be in life, I change my mind or I find something better. When I was a child, I had no idea I would be who I am today. And surprise, surprise! I’m probably going to evolve more into myself within the next week, or month, or year. I am ever changing and I love that about myself. I never let anyone’s opinions define who I am. I love finding out about myself as I go through things and learning how I handle things now. The changes that I witness everyday are beautiful and I embrace them all. No one should fascinate you more than yourself. I surprise myself everyday with the positive changes I see. I learn from my mistakes are a grateful for the lesson. I love who I am and no matter how many trials and errors I have to go through, the journey will always be worth it.

Peace & Love ♥